Is this going to become another boring weightloss blog?
Probably.
At least for a while as we all adjust to this new way of being.
We're at Day 2 and I am not feeling too bad. I was poking around on the Tony Ferguson forums today and was inspired by all the stories of people who have lost huge amounts of weight...over 50 kilograms some of them. Makes me believe that I really can do this. It will take a long time, but just maybe I can find the resources from deep within somewhere and actually reach a goal. More than anything I am frightened of failing. My life has been one long, long trail of weightloss failures except for one breif success in 1994. I got under 60kg in 1994 and looked and felt fantastic. The weight all came back of course, most of it after I got married and then there were the kids and then I turned 40 and started a new med. Each stage of life seemed to add a few more kilos.
If I am being realistic, under 60kg is not going to happen. Once upon a time I wouldn't have been satisfied with anything less. Now my main goal is to fit back into the clothes I have in the wardrobe and which I love. That puts me at a size 14-16 and I would be happy with that. Obviously a 14 would be better, but 16 will do. That means a loss of 20 kilos from where I am now. When I reach that goal we'll talk more about where to go from there. There just seems so impossibly far.
A quick word to one of my readers...you'll know who you are :) Thank you for that email last night. It lifted my spirits to know that you care and thank you for your wise and kind words. There's an email heading in your direction too, but I wanted to say a public thank you - it meant a lot :)
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