Me time

This afternoon all is quiet, except for the dishwasher.

The house is empty of Mister Bear, Chickabid, Ladybug and Gyspy Jane.  It's just me alone.  I can't remember the last time I had time to be alone and to do nothing in particular.

For months I've been at work on the supersecret project, my Organised Fidgeting*, but that was completed yesterday when I sat and crocheted like a madwoman.  I still have a blanket on the go for Chickabid, and one slightly less along for the Ladybug, but I am kind of all crocheted out for a little while.  Their blankets will keep until we're all together and catching up on stuff on the TiVo.  For the moment I am merely enjoying the silence and the freedom of having nothing in particular to do.

In a minute or two I'll sign off here and fetch the scrapbooking box.  I have a few layouts that need finishing touches, and I have a whole bunch of ideas from here to explore with scrappy things.  There's a box bursting with photos that need scrapping.  I have barely touched scrapbooking in about 3 years - too unwell to think about it - but now that life is on the improve I need to capitalise on this.

I see the dr this week about my new med protocol.  There are not words to thank him enough.  I have my life back, but a better life than I could have dreamed about.  In looking back I think I have been sick for most of my life, without knowing it.  At least since I was 18, and possibly longer.  It is not beyond the realm of possibility that a particular traumatic event that occured 30 years ago could have triggered the illness and that it has been undiagnosed at least that long.  Everything is different now and I am having to learn how to live a new life.  It's a bit tricky, espceially when long ingrained patterns of behaviour no longer occur.  All I can say to the doctor is "Thank you", but that doesn't seem adequate.

I also have to write about Maria's visit...I'm finding it hard to believe that the visit has come and gone.  We were looking forward to it for so long, and now it's in the past.  It was a wonderful 2 and a half days and I will be forever grateful for the chance to meet someone who is now a firmly entrenched part of our family.